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aceofkittens) wrote2002-10-24 12:22 am
aceofkittens) wrote2002-10-24 12:22 am
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Placebo Effect?
All right, so it's been three days of unusual activity, in that, I've left the house every day. This is frightening and disturbing. I can't figure out if the 5-HTP really is what's making the difference, or if I've latched onto this as the excuse for somehow motivating myself or...
Hell, I guess it doesn't matter why, as long as I'm leaving the house.
I have a really weird relationship with medication or any kind. I've always been very resistant to it. The idea that this whole downward spiral thing I've been on may be somewhat chemical in nature is very distressing to me. I come from a long line of people who like to suffer through pain. Taking a pill == showing weakness, as far as my family's concerned. Quiet desperation is our way, and we're not even English. Tally ho!
But my quality of life has improved so dramatically lo these last three days, that I have to think about this whole thing a little more seriously.
In other news, I got my hands on GRRM's Hedge Knight novella and am about to devour it. There's nothing like finding out that a good friend is already a GRRM fanatic, because it means you don't have to try and convert them. :) And when it turns out they already bought a bunch of the trading cards...
Good times.
Hell, I guess it doesn't matter why, as long as I'm leaving the house.
I have a really weird relationship with medication or any kind. I've always been very resistant to it. The idea that this whole downward spiral thing I've been on may be somewhat chemical in nature is very distressing to me. I come from a long line of people who like to suffer through pain. Taking a pill == showing weakness, as far as my family's concerned. Quiet desperation is our way, and we're not even English. Tally ho!
But my quality of life has improved so dramatically lo these last three days, that I have to think about this whole thing a little more seriously.
In other news, I got my hands on GRRM's Hedge Knight novella and am about to devour it. There's nothing like finding out that a good friend is already a GRRM fanatic, because it means you don't have to try and convert them. :) And when it turns out they already bought a bunch of the trading cards...
Good times.